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In 2012 I....

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!! 

I'm doing a end-of-the-year fic meme, for 2012. I actually did most of it last weekend, but I was afraid I'd have a last minute addition, so I just waited until today to post it :D

Divided by month, and including mentions of few other things that happened this year, that had an effect on my writing frequency.

But first, the personal victory of 2012:

In terms of BIG IMPORTANT THINGS that happened in 2012, the one that really matters is that I finally got on medication for my ADD. Which is marvelous, and beautiful, and all sorts of other synonyms for good. But, there was something of a trade-off. Because it took me a long time to get fully adjusted to the medications and the side-effects. And the primary side-effect I experienced was loss of appetite. And I mean LOSS. It was gone. At first, I was actively turned-off by food. Nothing tasted good, nothing was appealing, anything I ate was choked down. That went away pretty quickly, thank goodness, but I still never felt hungry, which made it way too easy to forget to eat. Now, nearly a year after starting the meds, I still don't feel hungry very often, but I've gotten to the point where I eat regularly and enjoy my food. The reason I'm telling this story here, is because the whole food ordeal corresponded pretty directly with my fic writing in 2012. Most of the winter, I had very little energy and what I did have, pretty much got focused on school. I had ideas, and I had the focus, but actually typing them out and editing and the whole process, was exhausting. So for the beginning of 2012, I wrote very little. And I'm hoping that won't be the case for 2013. The fandomy thing I DID do last winter, while I had all this concentration, but very little motivation or energy, was read fic. I went through author pages, and archives, and LJs, and finally read a lot of long fics that I'd been putting off, because I could finally concentrate long enough to get through them. So that was nice. Anyway, enough with the life ramblings, on to the fic lists!

FIC/GRAPHICS:

January:
Lose Your Heart in History- Darla, Angel, Connor piece, AtS s4. "Her boys are hurting."
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/35329.html

This is the Song That Never Ends- HIMYM, Ted's daughter makes a desperate call to Robin. "You've got to help us!"
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/35650.html

My Heart Was Never Pure- AtS, Wesley/Illyria. Hard things (soft things).
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/35944.html

Ancient, Ageless, Endless Girls- TVD, future-fic, Caroline, Rebekah. "She's seventeen, ten times over before she sees Rebekah again."
http://penny-lane-42.livejournal.com/244264.html?thread=5555240#t5555240

February:
The Chain-Not fic! Anne let me help storyboard a video, and this is it!
http://nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com/41405.html

**I didn't write any fic in February. Part of that was the why-am-I-so-sluggish-oh-right-I-only-had-toast-and-some-coffee-in-the-last-30-hours, but in February, it was mostly because I was working on original fiction for class, and also on a photography end-of-quarter assignment, which required a lot of planning and a lot of hours spent on the darkroom/digital photography studio.

March:
**I completed and turned in my original fic assignment. I later posted it here:
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/45453.html

** I also completed and turned in my photography assignment, which I just now got around to scanning into my computer. I'm thinking about putting them up here, mostly because the subject was hands, and I like hands.

Burning Through the Bloodline- BtVS, post-Chosen. Buffy, Giles. Buffy and Giles have a talk about depression and the Slayer line.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/44276.html

April:
We Couldn't Bring the Columns Down- AtS, post-NFA, Cordy/Angel. The history books forgot about us, and the bible didn't mention us.
http://youcallitwinter.livejournal.com/57023.html?thread=1849023#t1849023

May:
Every Chorus was Your Name- Victorious, Beck/Jade. I can't keep no secrets, I wish that you would always stay.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/45898.html

The Silence in Between- BtVS, Buffy/Spike, post-NFA. They are cursed. Doomed to repeat the same patterns over and over again.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/48317.html

Or Are You Someone's Prayer- TVD, future fic. Jeremy, Elena. I go on as you get colder.
http://softly-me.livejournal.com/211808.html?thread=5005664#t5005664

Mirror Girls- TVD, post-s3, Elena, Katherine. You and I were born to die.
http://softly-me.livejournal.com/211808.html?thread=5028960#t5211744

The Crackers Were Probably Bad Luck Anyway- Victorious, Cat-centric. Five times Cat was definitely not crazy.
http://m.fanfiction.net/s/8134855/1/The-Crackers-Were-Probably-Bad-Luck-Anyway

Carve Your Name Into My Heart- Victorious, Jade/Beck. She writes her name on his skin.
http://m.fanfiction.net/s/8134661/1/Carve-Your-Name-into-My-Heart

**In May, I downloaded the free trial of illustrator for a class assignment, and decided to teach myself to be at least sort of ok with image editing software. I did this by making fandom graphics.

June:
The Sound of the Handcuffs (As They Scrape Across the Floor)- Victorious, ensemble, background Jade/Beck. Jade is plotting, Beck has a solution, and the rest of them are just trying to ignore the implications.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/49692.html

The Saga of Beck and the Cricket- Victorious. Jade/Beck. Five conversations about the damn cricket.
http://m.fanfiction.net/s/8208174/2/

Graphics- BtVS, Veronica Mars. my first few, shaky graphics. I really like the "It's going to hurt a lot" one though.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/49592.html

**In June, I went back to work full time at a daycare center. Which took up some time *g*

July:
Slow it Down Honey, and Stop Playing Them Games- BtVS, S6, Buffy/Spike. Truth or dare?
http://sb-fag-ends.livejournal.com/145833.html

August:
When We Start Making Fires- The Hunger Games, Clove/Cato. I'm hoping you'll understand and not let go of my hand.
http://upupa-epops.livejournal.com/164608.html?thread=2811136#t2811136

The Weight of All of Us- Veronica Mars, Veronica/Logan, future fic. I'm not ready.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/52564.html

And Means to Wed at Leisure- Victorious, Jade/Beck, Beck's mom. Five times Beck Oliver's mother thought about Jade West.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/8420383/1/And_Means_to_Wed_at_Leisure

Blood and Rust 2/?- BtVS/AtS, alt-S5, Post-Chosen. Buffy's in LA when Spike comes out of the amulet.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/53135.html

**downloaded free trial of PS

September:
And Don't Let Go- Cabin in the Woods, post-movie. Dana and Marty try to live in the world they made.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/54737.html

Graphic- CitW, Dana/Marty
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/54737.html

Keep Pushing the Bruise- Victorious, Jade/Beck. I don't want to lose what I loved about you.
http://m.fanfiction.net/s/8208174/3/

Graphics- TVD, VM
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/54898.html

October:
Baby You Don't Fool Me- BtVS, Buffy/Spike. Masquerade.

**Most of October was dedicated to writing more original fic for another class. I haven't posted it, but I probably will at some point.

November:
Two-Hearted Dream- Voctorious, Jade/Beck. You know, my darling, I can't stand to sleep alone.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/58176.html

**November was also pretty school-centric, plus a week with no wifi, during Thanksgiving.

December:
An Emotion You Cannot Deny 1/4- BtVS, S4 AU, Willow/Riley. Tap at my window, maybe I might let you in.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/58774.html

Like Candy to My Soul- Victorious, Tori/Meredith. "Do you maybe want to get out of here?" My first same-sex pairing.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/60041.html

Water in the Dust Bowl- BtVS, Buffy/Spike, post-NFA. I got arms to hold me every night, but I'm still sleeping with a ghost.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/60713.html

Another Sucker for a Game Kids Like to Play- Life With Derek, Casey/Derek, post-series. He kisses her at 2:53 pm.
http://upupa-epops.livejournal.com/209895.html?thread=4153831#t4153831

(If I Were the Betting Kind) I Would Bet On Us- VM, Veronica/Logan, post-series. Logan and Veronica, ten years later.
http://upupa-epops.livejournal.com/209895.html?thread=4149223#t4149223

Have You Any Dreams You'd Like to Sell?- VM, Veronica-centric, post-s3. What didn't kill me, never made stronger at all.
http://upupa-epops.livejournal.com/209895.html?thread=4206055#t4206055

Graphics- BtVS, VM.
http://smells-corrupt.livejournal.com/61111.html


QUESTIONS:

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?
I keep thinking that I've written a lot less this year than I actually have. There were long periods of time when I didn't write anything, so that might be what's making me feel like I've written less. I know I wrote less than I wanted to write, but I also know that the amount I want to write is astronomically higher than what I actually end up writing, so I suppose I wrote about the amount of fic that I thought I'd write, but it isn't the same ~kind of fic that I thought I'd write. And I wrote significantly less Buffy/Spike this year than I have in the past.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2012?
Oh my God, so many. I never would have predicted at all that I would write Cabin in the Woods fic. I wouldn't have predicted that I'd even see the movie. I maybe could have predicted writing The Hunger Games fic, but I never would have thought it would be Clove/Cato. I might have said that I'd write Victorious fic, but the sheer amount of fic I wrote for that show this year, is probably the most surprising thing of all. I would never have predicted that. I also wouldn't have predicted that I'd write Willow/Riley. And in not-fic, I would not have guessed that I would ever make graphics at all. Last January, I'd never done a single thing on PS and the idea of trying made me die inside, a little.

Did you take any writing risks this year? (See above for unexpected pairings, etc.) What did you learn from them?
I don't know how much of a risk it was, but I wrote femslash for the first time, and that was different for me. As was graphic making. That was risky, because I am so incredibly techno-illiterate, and I was risking all of my sanity *g* But I feel lot more comfortable using that type of software now, so it paid off.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?
To keep writing. That's my only goal. Just keep writing.


My Best Story:
I don't know. I really like Water in the Dustbowl. Probably because I really like the Buffy/Spike stuff I was doing in 2010-11, and this reminds me a lot of that. I don't know if it's my best story, but right now it's my favorite. I also really like Slow it Down Honey and Stop Playing Them Games. And in terms of reception, And Means to Wed at Leisure, got 35 reviews on FF.net, which is the most I've gotten on that site for a oneshot, so that was cool. *g*


Story Most Underappreciated by the Universe:
I don't like this question. None of them are underappreciated. There's a noticeable difference between the places I post, in terms of response, but that's understandable given what I've been posting has mostly been Buffyverse or Victorious. Buffy stuff gets more attention on LJ, and Victorious gets more on FF.net. But nothing is underappreciated.


Most fun:
A couple of the Victorious fitb pieces. The Sound of the Handcuffs and The Saga of Beck and the Cricket, were SO MUCH FUN to write. So was Another Sucker.


Most disappointing:
The Silence in Between. I like it, but I started off really strong while writing it, and it was an idea that I'd had rattling around in my head for awhile, and then I feel like I rushed through finishing it, and didn't do as well as I thought I could have. I like what I have, but it doesn't really feel finished to me, I guess?

Most sexy:
The Silence in Between had the most outright sex, and I'm actually pretty happy with how those turned out.

Story With a Single Sexy Moment:
The end of Slow it Down Honey is pretty sexy, imo.

His hand falls to rest on her thigh and he leans closer, his voice a rough whisper in her ear. “Truth or dare, Buffy?”
She glances past his shoulder. No one can see them. So she winds her arms around his neck and pulls him close. Kisses him hard, right there in her kitchen, mere feet from everyone she loves.

When she pulls back to breathe, Spike rests his brow against hers and repeats, “Truth or-“

Her fingers tighten on his shoulders. “Spike, I don’t want to play.”

His lips travel down to her neck, and he murmurs into her skin. “What do you call this, then?”

She doesn’t answer, just pulls him back up to her mouth (He’ll always pick truth, she’ll always pick dare).

Hardest to Write:
Blood and Rust. I don't know what it is about knowing it's a WIP that makes it so freakin' difficult to write. But it really does.


ROUND UP STATS:

In 2012, I...

* wrote 23 completed, stand alone fics.
* wrote/added to 3 WIP fics.
* wrote over 1,000 words on more than half of my posted fic, and several of those were 2, 3, or 4k words. There's a definite pattern of longer stories.
* wrote 36,798 total words of posted fic, plus somewhere in the neighborhood of 7,000 words of original short fiction.
* wrote for 8 different fandoms, 4 of which I'd never written before.

* helped out on a fanvid

* learned how to use Photoshop, Illustrator, and Gimp.

OTHER FANDOM STUFF:

* In 2012 (more towards the end, but it still totally counts), I made a conscious effort to post to LJ more frequently, even if it wasn't directly fandom related, and to comment on posts that weren't always fandom related, even if doing so went a little out of comfort zone.
* I got to know several members of my flist better, and made some new friendships/strengthened older ones. And I am so happy that I did that, I love you all! <3
* I was increasingly swallowed by the tumblr beast. But I still don't get the concept of using it as an interactive fandom base? Idk. I use it frequently, but any discussions I have, take place here.

While there were definitely some things I didn't quite accomplish, and deadlines I didn't meet, and goals I didn't complete, I'm still pretty happy with the way things shook out this year. I'm calling 2012 a fannish success!

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Comments

UGH ADD MEDS. Here's hoping that when I finally get insurance again and can go see my psychiatrist, he takes me off the meds that made me gain weight and puts me back on the ADD meds that make me lose weight. My New Year's Resolution was to lose weight, period. No discussion of how, but it will definitely be easier with the appetite suppression of Adderall! And go you with all that writing! (I meant to comment on this when you posted it but I think it got lost during a Supernatural binge).